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Name: Karsmy wish for you
i wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright.
drained
what has been thrown away
two loves incinerated, drained
nothing left to give up.
thanks dad
my mom is pretty boisterous and high-strung. her high-pitched voice (that's on a normal tone) resonates in my ear even in my dreams. she's one-track minded sometimes, and at times not a very big fan of listening (hearing, yes). i really pity my dad for having to carry the burden of tolerating her madness; for ever having to argue when he knows he is always at a loss; and for always having to be blamed for everything gone wrong inside this household.
my sister recently revealed what my dad said a few years back during this major family "fight" that we had. he said (advising my sis), "Huwag mo nang pakinggan yang mommy mo. Kung dinamdam ko pa yang mga sinasabi niya, matagal na kaming naghiwalay."
my mom usually said that my dad is very lucky to have a wife like her. i think it's the other way around. my mom is even luckier to have a husband as patiend and understading as my dad.
is it father's day? no. it's just that sometimes i also forget to give him the credit that he deserves.
what's so merry about christmas
Sunday, December 26, 2004
a tommy hilfiger perfume from my tita merle
a COACH bag from my cousin ate bambi( a real one as a matter of fact!)
a tie-dyed tube from my tita susan (so fit for our bora trip)
pantulog from my mauleon cousins
an SG calendar so creatively done by ara
an SG 505, SG scrapbook, and a top from clarissa
a vintage tee from my sister jaja
speedo slippers from ate kattie
RENT piano book from joy
an all expense paid trip to Boracay, Bantayan and Bohol from my parents
a christmas wish from a friend
a gazillion warm christmas messages
a call from a dear friend (at exactly 12 midnight!)
an SG christmas lunch (treated by mau and ara)
a 4J christmas get together
noche buena with beloved relatives
a fun day spent in tagaytay highlands
a complete family on christmas day
though greatly appreciated, worldly things are just temporal. what makes me smile the most is the presence of love and happiness on christmas day.
*smile*
There's a letter on the desktop
that i dug out of a drawer
the last truce we ever came to
from our adolescent war
and i start to feel a fever
from the warm air through the screen
you come regular like seasons
shadowing my dreams
and the mississippi's mighty
but it starts in Minnesota
at a place where you could walk across with five steps down
and i guess that's how you started
like a pinprick to my heart
but at this point you rush right through me
and i start to drown
and there's not enough room in this world for my pain
signals cross and love gets lost
and time passed makes it plain
of all my demon spirits i need you the most
i'm in love with your ghost i'm in love with your ghost
dark and dangerous like a secret
that gets whispered in a hush
when i wake the things i dreamt about you last night make me blush
when you kiss me like a lover
then you sting me like a viper
i go follow to the river
play your memory like the piper
and i feel it like a sickness
how this love is killing me
but i'd walk into the fingers of your fire willingly
and dance the edge of sanity
i've never been this close
in love with your ghost
unknowing captor
you'll never know how much you pierce my spirit
but i can't touch you can you hear it
a cry to be free
or i'm forever under lock and key
as you pass through me
now i see your face before me
i would launch a thousand ships
to bring your heart back to my island
as the sand beneath me slips
as i burn up in your presence
and i know now how it feels
to be weakened like Achilles
with you always at my heels
and my bitter pill to swallow
is the silence that i keep
that poisons me i can't swim free
the river is too deep
though i'm baptized by your touch
i am no worse at most
in love with your ghost
*sigh*
Sunday, December 19, 2004
but i've been thinking about you all the time.
a supposed vacation,
turned out to be an irrefutable reality of contemplation.
when you wish upon a star
Monday, December 13, 2004
i am comforted with the fact that we granted the wish of a 10-year old cancer patient last saturday.
the radiance of his smile upon seeing the computer just made my day.
dreams do come true, even in the truest sense of hopelessness.
thanks to mig, cindy, yce, monchot, and everyone from the make a wish foundation for making this a success! may we continue to believe in the power of a wish. :D
10 Things I Hate About You
Sunday, December 12, 2004
I hate it when you don't acknowledge your faults...
I hate it when you blow things out of proportion...
I hate it when you don't mingle with other people, especially with my family...
I hate it when you give out a fake laugh everytime...
I hate it when after a fight, everything is left hanging...
I hate it when you don't have time for me because of your mps, but you have time for basketball...
I hate it when you don't say that you love me and you don't miss me...
I hate it when you're just not there for me when i need you the most...
I hate it when after all these, i still love you...