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Name: Kars
B-day: October 20, 1984
Zodiac: Libra
Age: 20
School: De La Salle University

female. libra. roman catholic. music lover. broadway junkie. eccentric artist wannabe. avid movie-goer. internet freak. periodic drinker. non-smoker. chronic drunkard. class cutter. weekend bum. shoe collector. alias fanatic. trying-hard singer. frustrated ballerina. pseudo piano player. infrequent commuter. nonstop texter. former friendster devotee. current blog enthusiast.
Saturday, April 15, 2006

this week i realized that things can never be the same with your ex, whether you like it or not. there is no such thing as being close friends with your ex, because there will always be a line of awkwardness. so it's better to just cut your losses already.

condition: unless both parties are COMPLETELY over each other, over everything that had happened in the past, then that's a different story.

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a week more to go and off i go to spain! i'm surely going to miss my family, friends, and of course philip! but i'm also sure that i'll have the time of my life there! so i'll see ya guys when i get back. with my pasalubongs! anyone who wants anything in particular? i've already got a long list of real madrid jerseys to buy for my cousin, my friend chris, my sister's boyfriend, and philip! haha :) btw, i'm hopeful that we're gonna watch a real madrid game. so beckham, wait for me! :D


abadudi @ 2:51 PM
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Wednesday, February 15, 2006

my valentines

well, all i can say is that it was the best valentines day EVER! i'm not very big on valentines, and so for this year, i didn't expect much. but this year was way different. details will be revealed next time, but let me just put it this way: it's only with philip that i can cry because of sheer joy. throughout the night, i was crying in random moments!

so next year, it will be my turn to give him a surprise. and i have no idea how to beat what he did! haha!

i couldn't be happier with anyone else! weeeee!


abadudi @ 9:55 AM
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Sunday, February 12, 2006

due to increasing demand

ok, so after 40 plus days of not posting, here's my new entry, rissa, sjeanz and ara!!

i've been very busy with school. (or atleast i pretend to be! haha! jk!) i have 2 non-major subjects with professors who demand so much, and who feel that they are major subjects. so every monday and wednesday is such a stress, because there's always work for tuesday and thursday. 2 more months to go! woohoo!

i envy my barkada! they're graduating this april, and finishing early march. how unfair!

my spanish class is fun. badj is so gay, but he's a great teacher! i am able to express more now than ever before. imagine, i was able to talk about population growth in spanish! i hope that this level would enable us to speak more, since we had a very bad foundaiton with our past professors.

speaking of spanish, everyday, as i am drawn closer to april 22 (the day i'm leaving for spain), i feel more and more excited!! i saw pictures of the students who went there last october, and whoa!! i just can't seem to wait! we're going around spain, especially during weekends. to barcelona, madrid, toledo, even to portugal...and...we're going to ibiza! party capital!!! but at the same time i'm also looking forward to going back and seeing my working friends, my family, and my hunny of course!! i'm sure i'm going to miss them so much. i haven't even left yet, and philip's already thinking of how he'd like to hug me so tightly when i arrive. hehe! such a sweetheart. :) but this experience will be wonderful and unforgettable of course. one because there's no parental supervision. two, because i know how to more or less speak the language.
three, because we're going around the country and learning the culture! agghhh!! i want this term to end already.

although one question still remains. what will i do when i get back? i have three months to do absolutely anything i want to. suggestions?? :)


abadudi @ 11:57 PM
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Sunday, January 01, 2006

goodbye 2005, hello 2006!

there is this one great thing that i'm grateful for for 2005: moving on.

because of this, i was able to keep myself preoccupied with academics, the sc, and my friends. and most especially, because of this, i was able to meet and be with philip. who would have thought right? but despite the chaos and what not, believing in him and staying with him were the best decisions of the year. i ended the year great. fantastic! amazing! unbelievable!!! :)

so what am i looking forward to in 2006?
- more time with my hunny! haha
- my SPAIN TRIP! woohoo! 5 weeks without parental supervision. 5 weeks of independence. 5 weeks of exploration.
- possibly a part-time work during my 3-month hiatus
- OJT and thesis with melai, clang and dax
- graduating! woohoo!

yey! wala lang. :)


abadudi @ 9:13 PM
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Saturday, December 31, 2005

louder than words (my song to the filipino people) - from tick tick boom

Why do we play with fire?
Why do we run our finger through the flame?
Why do we leave our hand on the stove-
Although we know we're in for some pain?

Oh, why do we refuse to hang a light
When the streets are dangerous?
Why does it take an accident
Before the truth gets through to us?

Cages or wings?
Which do you prefer?
Ask the birds.
Fear or love, baby?
Don't say the answer
Actions speak louder than words.

Why should we try to be our best
When we can just get by and still gain?
Why do we nod our heads
Although we know
The boss is wrong as rain?

Why should we blaze a trail
When the well worn path seems safe and so inviting?
How-as we travel, can we see the dismay-
And keep from fighting?

What does it take
To wake up a generation?
How can you make someone
Take off and fly?

If we don't wake up
And shake up the nation
We'll eat the dust of the world
Wondering why

Why do we stay with lovers
Who we know, down deep just aren't right?
Why would we rather put ourselves through hell
Than sleep alone at night?

Why do we follow leaders who never lead?
Why does it take catastrophe to start a revolution
If we're so free, tell me why?
Someone tell me why so many people bleed?


abadudi @ 12:06 AM
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Monday, December 26, 2005

happy holidays!

first of all, merry christmas to everyone! how was my christmas? it just felt like another sunday to me. we usually have family reunions of some sort during lunch and dinner, but this year we had none. my family and i just went to alabang town center to get some coffee and to eat dinner out. surprisingly, there were a lot of people there! i guess almost everybody was spending their christmas out of their homes. i had cool gifts from my family though! from my sister jaja, my sisters and i got this really cool dvd trivia gameboard! from ate kattie, i got the two tops i've always wanted. one from people are people, the other from this tiangge we saw. from joy, i got the faced-out CD of moonpools and caterpillars entitled LUCKY DUMPLINGS, and the geisha novel in spanish. pretty TIGHT, but best of luck to me!!! haha! from my parents, an amount of *toot* (i will not disclose!), but all i can say is that it is greatly appreciated.

anyhoo, i met philip's other relatives today. i spent almost the whole day at their place in the boondoks! (haha! since we live in complete opposite parts of the philippines!!!) they were pretty cool! i felt warmly accepted in their humble home. can't wait to meet them again, but i have to play the piano the next time. oh noooo!!

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i was browsing through macky's multiply a couple of minutes back, and saw one of our old pics during the 4J reunion last year. check this out:


yah, we were literally lying down on the sidewalks. SG shouldn't be called South Gurlz but Sabog Gurlz. True that macky bro!!! :D


abadudi @ 11:15 PM
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Wednesday, December 07, 2005

the sweetest thing

yesterday, i brought some hershey's kisses along with me so that philip and i can have something to munch on. apparently i brought kisses with almonds, and if you know me well, you'd know for a fact that i don't like nuts in chocolates. so i wasn't able to eat much. bummer!

this morning, my hunny texted me that he had a little surprise for me. when we met up, he gave me a small pack of hershey's creamy milk chocolate kisses WITHOUT almonds. so i was like..."awww thanks!" while i was typing my paper, and ready to open my pack of kisses, i noticed that on the package, he pasted a piece of paper over the hershey's and replaced it with "philip's". so it read "philip's kisses". and when i looked closer, i saw that each of the kisses had an attached string of paper with sentences on them. it was so fun eating the kisses because i looked forward to getting each chocolate so i could read his message. anyway here are the little notes that he put:

1. you give me a reason to wake up every morning.
2. thank you for accepting me for who i am.
3. you're charming. -----> that's what his mom said!
4. you're sophisticatedly beautiful. ---> that's how he describes me! hehe
5. you make life worth living.
6. there's not a moment that you're not on my mind.
7. i could kiss you for a lifetime.
8. thank you for loving me back.
9. i love you.

ain't he a sweetie or what?! and every time i read each of them, i'd say "awwww.." then he'd come over to my side and give me kisses. so i'd enjoy the chocolate kisses and his kisses. :) :) :) he said that it doesn't take any special occasion for him to express what he feels for me. he wants to constantly remind me how much i mean to him. awwwwwww.... :D wala lang!


abadudi @ 8:31 PM
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Wednesday, November 02, 2005

to be or not to be

maybe i'm just getting older (and wiser! hehe).

i've been thinking about my future. what am i gonna do after i graduate? i know of a lot of people who have very definite paths. some are getting into law school. some are working for their family business. some are going abroad for "greener pasteurs". hell, mau hasn't even graduated yet, and she has gotten 2 job offers from 2 top corporations in the philippines. i envy people like those. they know what they want. they know how to achieve what they want.

while here i am sitting and wondering what the impending future awaits me. do i pursue a career in marketing? do i go to spain right away to find a job? do i try out being a flight attendant for 3 years so i can travel the world while i'm getting paid at the same time? do i work for our family business? do i marry fresh out of college and start a family? (ok, that last one is a little far-fetched!)

i feel like i want to do a lot of things in my life while i'm still young and healthy. i want to go to places, and explore the beauty of the world. i want to get a job that's sufficient. but more importantly, a job that i have passion for. a job that makes me want to look forward to waking up each day. i want to have a family! with that man i'm gonna love for the rest of my life, and children that would make my reason for breathing. one measure of success (for a woman, at least) is if one has raised her family well. i also want to go to spain and apply the language that i've had devoted my time and effort into learning. i think the problem lies in prioritizing. which is in the top of my list? what do i want to do first? the answer is...i don't know!!! hehehe!

i have around 1 year to get my priorities straight. hopefully i'll make the right choice. i hope that choice will bring me the happiness that i deserve! :)


abadudi @ 11:02 AM
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Sunday, October 16, 2005

where the party's at

i've been seeing a lot of SG for the past months (every week!), and i'm loving it! nothing's better than being with the people who mean the most to me. last night was louie's debut at wack-wack. although we didn't know much of the people there, we still made it a point to enjoy ourselves. after the 21 gifts, it was supposed to be the "after-party". a bottle of mudshakes and a few shots of gin later, we conquered the dance floor with our adopted SG mates, namely carlo, sushee, toni and bea. as usual, ara and rissa were drunk again! ara was being her extra-vivacious self , while rissa was more subtle, but was doing her sexy grooves! they were even flirting with my hunny!! haha :)

at midnight, we were off to david's birthday party. unfortunately, when we got there, all our high school friends were leaving already. it's weird pala when you meet your ex, and you're with the present. especially when he (the ex) tries to avoid looking at your direction. haha! understandable. things will never be the same. that's just the way it is. and...frankly..i don't mind at all! haha :D

anyway, we stayed at david's for like an hour and a half. rissa and ara were talking to some ateneans (about sex i think! haha), while philip and i were outside having yet another one of our serious (but nice and assuring) conversations about...secret!
we could've continued talking til the sun rose (there's no stopping us!! - only my mom. haha), but sadly we had to leave.

on the way home, with the two boozehounds in dreamland, i was once again in the arms of the man i love. whispering sweet-nothings in each other's ears, i was reminded again of how great our relationship is, and how i wouldn't trade it for anything else in this world.

it's also great (and surprising) that a lot of people notice how happy i am now. and not only that, that we both look so cute together. hihi kinilig ang gaga.

i think i've turned into a cheesy person. i love it! haha :)

SIDENOTE: wala lang. he's so cute when he tells everyone how madly in love he is with me. (or how we are with each other.) AHHHHH!!!! :D couldn't have i asked for a better man?


abadudi @ 2:28 PM
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Sunday, October 09, 2005

back from the dead!

yes, yes, i know it's been forever since i last posted. let's just say i was out and busy with someone. haha! yes, ladies and gentlemen, again i would like to say goodbye to my single-blessedness soul. i think i've finally found my perfect match!

his name is philip, and he's the greatest guy you can ever come across. no joke! i can make an endless list of things i love about him. on the other hand, i have to squeeze my brain cells out to even think of a single thing i hate about him. i find ways to love him more everyday. :D

what i like about US is that we can be very fun and spontaneous at one time, but can be very serious too. we can talk for hours about anything and everything that our interest can lie upon, and still we can't get enough of each other. hell, we can even stare at each other's face the whole day and smile for no reason, and yet being bored is the least thing we can think of! everyday we're swept into this crazy world of ours, where we are like deranged immature juveniles laughing and teasing like there's no tomorrow.

another overwhelming feeling is how my family loves him! i can leave him with any of my parents or my sisters in the dining table, and they would have their own conversation. after that monumental remark that my dad delivered (that of which i feel like putting on my epitaph, since it just comes once in a lifetime!), i realized that this was indeed right.

he is a sweetheart. eventhough we've just been together for a short time now, i've never felt so much love and assurance from a person. you know how you watch those romantic movies like jerry maguire, when the guy tells the girl sentimental lines such as "you complete me" your heart just melts in jealousy, wishing that the right man in your life can utter the same lines to you? well...let's just say i'm you real-life dorothy boyd (renee zellwegger in jerry maguire!) every single day. and it feels abso-fuckin-lutely great.

and it's just not those words that make a lot of difference, but how every gesture he makes, simple as they may seem, spells out the word LOVE.

funny, i told myself before that i'd give myself atleast a year before i get into another relationship. but..i had no idea something this great would come along. i'd rather NOT stick to my word, than to let this opportuntity pass. so, here's to promises made, and promises broken. hehe!

i always thought my ideal guy never existed. guess i thought wrong. :)

so yeah, i am very very very happy now! i couldn't ask for more. :p
i think i've been out of touch with the world for some time now. somebody please snap me back to reality!!


aren't we such cuties? ;)


abadudi @ 12:43 PM
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