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Name: Kars
B-day: October 20, 1984
Zodiac: Libra
Age: 20
School: De La Salle University

female. libra. roman catholic. music lover. broadway junkie. eccentric artist wannabe. avid movie-goer. internet freak. periodic drinker. non-smoker. chronic drunkard. class cutter. weekend bum. shoe collector. alias fanatic. trying-hard singer. frustrated ballerina. pseudo piano player. infrequent commuter. nonstop texter. former friendster devotee. current blog enthusiast.

Thursday, March 31, 2005

last night was a confirmation of two things:
1. we are getting older. we were talking about babies (well, probably because somebody was pregnant), about our futures, and all the things that adults talk about. but there was still a lingering aura of immaturity in the room (headed by gayness and greatness krissie). anyway, so kumusta naman ang nanay mo? haha!

2. he's gone. he just is. sad, but true. sucks, but i have to accept it. i thought it was a brave step (although i think it was indeed, in some way), a step that would lead to an opportunity, but i guess i thought wrong. let me put it into perspective. it was like two people who had common friends, but were never introduced the whole night.

it was hard seeing you and not talking to you. i understand your sentiment, but i think that in order to move on you have to confront the evil in your life (that's me!). i didn't expect for us to talk as if nothing happened, but at least there should've been a greeting of some sort. i tried looking at you to gesture (a nod or something) a sign of acknowledgement of your presence, but you never looked my way. i know i know, easier said than done. i guess i just wanted it to go one step higher. who was i kidding, right? it will be IN YOUR TIME. i'm just waiting.

weird. i understand, but i guess i don't completely. last night even added to the confusion.

good thing someone saved my night.

SAME GROUND
Kitchie Nadal

My love,
Its been a long time since i cried
And left you out of the blue.
It's hard leaving you that way whenI never wanted to.

Self-denial is a game
It's strange i never would've
Wanted if until there was you.
Because i have learned that love is beyond
What human can imagine,
The more it clears
The more i have to let you go.

CHORUS:
But now i don't understand why im feeling
So bad now when i know it was my idea.
I could've just denied the truth and lied.
But why am i the only one standing stranded
On the same ground?

My love,
Its been a long time since i cried
And left you out of the blue.
It's hard leaving you that way whenI never wanted to.

Self-denial is a game
It's strange i never would've
Wanted if until there was you.
because i have learned that love is a
Word gets thrown a little bit too much.
The best excuse to fill the infinite abyss
I never have to if all else fail

Would you be there to love me?
When all else fail,
Would you be brave to see right through me?