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Name: Kars
B-day: October 20, 1984
Zodiac: Libra
Age: 20
School: De La Salle University

female. libra. roman catholic. music lover. broadway junkie. eccentric artist wannabe. avid movie-goer. internet freak. periodic drinker. non-smoker. chronic drunkard. class cutter. weekend bum. shoe collector. alias fanatic. trying-hard singer. frustrated ballerina. pseudo piano player. infrequent commuter. nonstop texter. former friendster devotee. current blog enthusiast.

Wednesday, July 07, 2004

la vie boheme

"How do you document real life, when real life's getting more like fiction each day?"

for the longest time, i'm finally having my dose of broadway music. i'm listening to RENT right now, and wow! boy have i've missed this a lot! this musical is so electrifying, that i could go on and on listening to it the whole day..

i went to the nook a while ago, cuz i finished my economics midterms early..on the table was today's issue of LIBRE. so for the lack of anything else to do, i read the paper, and for some reason it brought me to the "Love Notes" page where Joe D' Mango gives advices to those who write to him. The girl who wrote had a fairly typical story. she had a boyfriend, and after sometime she broke up with him because she didn't feel that he loved him anymore. she thought that if he would get back with her, she'd accept him again. but he didn't. so one day they finally met up and the guy told her that he wanted her back, but he wanted to fix his life first. The point is, she's having a hard time moving on, and she's bombarded with all these questions about love. but joe d' mango said something that caught my attention. "Maybe, Mark(the guy) did love you once. But I don't think that feeling stayed long enough to sustain your relationship. If a man really loves a woman, he will do everything to keep her." which leads me back to my original question...is love really enough? so does breaking up with jc mean that i don't love him anymore? what is love anyway? i didn't know that my actions had some subconscious meaning...it's like i may be feeling that i still love him, but i really don't...is this just some cutie-patootie-highschool-affair that's just full of infatuation junkie? i can't believe i'm actually saying this and i'm still 19. i've got so many things to explore and discover. i don't think i should be in a hurry. besides, i think this is just some postbreak-up syndrome...you tend to ask so many questions..i hope i'll be okay...

Current Song: Closer I Am To Fine by the Indigo Girls
Current Mood: enlightened