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Name: Kars
B-day: October 20, 1984
Zodiac: Libra
Age: 20
School: De La Salle University

female. libra. roman catholic. music lover. broadway junkie. eccentric artist wannabe. avid movie-goer. internet freak. periodic drinker. non-smoker. chronic drunkard. class cutter. weekend bum. shoe collector. alias fanatic. trying-hard singer. frustrated ballerina. pseudo piano player. infrequent commuter. nonstop texter. former friendster devotee. current blog enthusiast.

Monday, July 05, 2004

ytmpe

so yah i just broke up with jc last week...but i feel so empty...i'm just so incomplete without him...then again, there's another part of me that says i have to just move and find the "other fishes in the sea"...but it's easier said than done...it's hard to lose the one you love...everyday, all the memories just flash right before me...and i can't help thinking that hey, i'm sure it will still work out..but will it? or do i just wana make myself feel better? in a relationship, is love enough? can you be unhappy with a guy but still love a guy? doesn't love equate to happiness? is love an illusion? all these questions, nobody can answer...

i'm acting as if jc broke up with me...hey, it doesn't mean that because i broke up with him, i'm not hurting...i still feel the pain...and it hurts...like hell...it's weird though, i don't cry anymore...

i keep on asking myself, how can other couples of like 10 years (some with kids) that separate stand this? it's easier to break up with someone because of a third party, cuz you just know the guy's a bastard...and you deserve someone else...some people i guess just fall out of love...and sometimes, love just ain't enough...

it's been pretty lonely..but i'm hanging...i just have to think things through..i miss my friends, and i'm looking forward to our sleepover...we're gonna get drunk and wash all our miseries away...

til then, there's nothing else to look forward to...it's just school, school, and loads of crappy school work..sucky life..